One more hour and my almost-five-hour journey back to Helsinki will be over. After a week of the peace of the countryside I actually am quite happy to go back, I feel refreshed and a little more relaxed than what I was a week ago. Sadly, I only managed to get two nights of sleeping in a coma-like state in complete silence, too bad. That was what I was expecting maybe the most. And seeing my family, yeah, of course.
The past week has been full of memorable moments. I started my vacation wondering where time went, since I was watching my sister's high school dance. When did she get that old, too? I got to meet my old friends and had such a good time with them, though I have to admit the clubs in Kuopio don't quite reach to the level of the ones in the capital... But, what makes a perfect night is the company and we had a blast! The night did end in an emergency call but it had nothing to do with us. Luckily. The rest of the week was purely two things: being sick and an overdose of the Olympics. I am not even that huge a fan of ice hockey (I fell asleep during one match, oops...) but one day I watched almost two and a half games. In addition I witnessed one of the best Finnish sports moments in the forms of silver and gold. And we beat Russia, hopefully Sweden tomorrow too...! However, what made those days memorable was just hanging out with my family. Now that I don't live at home anymore, I have learned to appreciate those moments in a totally new way than before. Can't believe I am listening to Backstreet Boys...
Home sweet home! I am back in the countryside for a winter holiday week and it feels so weird. It is not even long that I have been away and everything still is so familiar but in some intangible way so different. Last night when I arrived we drove home, the same exact route I used to drive so many times, and I was like "damn we really live far away from the center". Having everything so close has made me want everything to be easy and close. Also it felt like this city has shrunk, how's that possible? However, I have learned to really like living in the capital. There are still times when I feel really alone and that the city is so cold on an emotional level but I really am more comfortable there than before. I keep finding out the meanings of more and more words for things and places the people from Helsinki use which is good, since now I might actually manage to understand what people are talking about. One reason why I am adapting well is probably getting to know new people at all the parties I've attended. There hasn't been a week since I moved there that I wouldn't have been at one.The last one was especially fun since I (finally) got to talk to people from different study programs. And yeah, spending every day around 20 to 40 girls, it was refreshing to have conversations with guys, too. Okay well at the bar I found myself surrounded by a conversation about football and they asked me if I know anything about it. When I started answering by "well, I know there are two teams and a ball and two goals..." the guys stopped trying to include me in the conversation. Anyway, I had a fun and successful night, since I won in alias (twice) and came second in a game at the bar where we needed to find our celebrity partner. The Beckhams should have won, though... I've been here only for a day and I've already managed to think if it is possible not to be bored being in the middle of nowhere for a week... I can't have become that urbanized yet, right? I can't get this song out of my head.
After celebrating the freshmen party since midday, all I wanna do is go to sleep. It was a great but an exhausting day, at the end of which I can't speak since my voice is gone from shouting and screaming. I always plan on taking a bus home or something but somehow I always find myself in this exact same train. Can't believe that once again I missed the bus (not entirely my fault this time though) and couldn't figure out which tram stop I need to be at. So, I'm here once again 'cause at least I know I'll get home this way. On top of it all, there's every single time a drunk person talking to everyone and this time isn't an exception: this one has asked me already 20 times if this train stops at Pasila. However, I am finally on the way home so good night everyone!
When in the previous post I was being mysteriously vague, tonight I might as well just spit it out since I have already made a decision. I was sitting in the marketing class a bit over a week ago and a thought hit me like a lightning. I seriously don't give a shit if people buy this product or that one and I couldn't care less about learning how to manipulate them to believe that this is what they need to do. Not that I don't like the class, the teacher is the best, but I just don't feel passionate about the subject.
The next day I eagerly went to my first Business English class and to my huge disappointment had to struggle through a lesson where I couldn't even follow the thoughts of the teacher 'cause she wasn't able to express herself in English well enough. Boom, another lightning. This, English, is what I am passionate about. I love the language, I am good at it, I know how to use it and I can't wait to learn more. I already know I am good at teaching and I've always seen myself studying in a university. At that exact moment in the class, I could see myself standing in front of 30 people lecturing about grammar and pronunciation. I knew I could make people learn and I felt so excited even thinking of all the new, inspiring ways of making people like it. So, this girl is applying to university in March! This actually gives me more motivation to study this spring since I have something to expect. I haven't made any decisions about where I want to go or what else I would want to take with English but this time, for once, I am concentrating on the most important at the right time. I'll make research on my options and decide when the time comes. I don't see the time spent here as a waste, the opposite. I have learned and will learn incredibly useful and important skills that I can use later in studies and life. Besides, I haven't got in yet so who knows, I could end up staying here for a year more... Doesn't make me jump from excitement, but I will stay in case I have to. However, if I get the chance to change my life again, I will. Even though I am still young, life's too short to settle for what doesn't make you happy.
