It's not always your moment to shine

Today I discovered a feeling that I really dislike. Well, of course I have experienced it before, but today's events made me sure of the fact that it is pretty uncomfortable. I am talking about being disappointed at yourself. 

Well, the situation that resulted in this wasn't so bad after all, at least now that I have (mostly) recovered from the embarrassment. I was at my cousins' and my uncle asked me to move my car out of the way so he could get out of the yard. Well, I did, but ended up stuck in a pile of snow. After realising I was stuck there was a moment of panic and I tried to wave and make my uncle realise I can't move but he looked at me like I am crazy, waved and drove away. Great. Well, then I bullied an innocent pedestrian by making him try to help me with pushing the car, but since it was no help I went to get my cousins to help. After a while, a little bit of work and a little bit of joking and laughing (at me) we got the car out of the snow. Imagine my relief.

And no, I don't need to hear that never-ending "women behind the wheel"-lecture, my cousin already covered that. 

But yeah, on top of the embarrassment from the looks of the bypassers, I felt so disappointed in myself. Especially since I consider myself a pretty good driver even given the fact that I got my licence only recently. That is the kind of mood that haunts you. After I left my cousins' I went to training but couldn't shake off the feeling of failing. I guess that was part of the reason why I felt a little tired and  had a low energy level. But on the bright side, the car didn't get damaged, I didn't hurt myself and I got a good laugh. Aaaand so did my cousins.

When used to succeeding and getting through situations respectfully, this kind of an incident knocks you back down to earth a little. I am not always perfect, I sometimes mess up, I don't always do the sensible or the right thing.That is a healthy thing to realise every once in a while, 'cause knowing you are capable of making mistakes it is easier to accept them when the time comes. I turn the disappointment into an educational experience and move on. Luckily, I am the kind of person who has no trouble laughing at herself (and trust me, I have to be...) so no harm done here. 

I want to end this with some music and a huge thank you to my wonderful cousins and my godmother who didn't hesitate when I was in trouble!