New direction

When in the previous post I was being mysteriously vague, tonight I might as well just spit it out since I have already made a decision. 

I was sitting in the marketing class a bit over a week ago and a thought hit me like a lightning. I seriously don't give a shit if people buy this product or that one and I couldn't care less about learning how to manipulate them to believe that this is what they need to do. Not that I don't like the class, the teacher is the best, but I just don't feel passionate about the subject. 

The next day I eagerly went to my first Business English class and to my huge disappointment had to struggle through a lesson where I couldn't even follow the thoughts of the teacher 'cause she wasn't able to express herself in English well enough. Boom, another lightning. This, English, is what I am passionate about. I love the language, I am good at it, I know how to use it and I can't wait to learn more. I already know I am good at teaching and I've always seen myself studying in a university. At that exact moment in the class, I could see myself standing in front of 30 people lecturing about grammar and pronunciation. I knew I could make people learn and I felt so excited even thinking of all the new, inspiring ways of making people like it.

So, this girl is applying to university in March! This actually gives me more motivation to study this spring since I have something to expect. I haven't made any decisions about where I want to go or what else I would want to take with English but this time, for once, I am concentrating on the most important at the right time. I'll make research on my options and decide when the time comes.

I don't see the time spent here as a waste, the opposite. I have learned and will learn incredibly useful and important skills that I can use later in studies and life. Besides, I haven't got in yet so who knows, I could end up staying here for a year more... Doesn't make me jump from excitement, but I will stay in case I have to. However, if I get the chance to change my life again, I will. Even though I am still young, life's too short to settle for what doesn't make you happy.