Somehow I am experiencing a very similar feeling at the moment as already twice before this year. I am packing my stuff into boxes and bags once again to change my address. When I moved here, to this apartment, I guessed it wouldn't be for long but somehow I am amazed by the fact that I am doing this again already now. It is not the same, though; this time I don't change my environment completely, the distance to the new place is only under three kilometers instead of hundreds of them and I don't feel the same enthusiasm of starting over.
I am, though. Starting over. A new beginning with all its possibilities, as a new year begins in a new home, with new roommates and a new mindset.
It is easier to pack now, however. Not anymore is it an emotional process of changing the direction, it is just stuffing things into boxes for a practical reason. I also have a better conception of what I own and how I should pack it, which means I do it a lot faster. Besides, I have so much to think about, other than moving, that it is just a rather annoying, yet sort of pleasing activity that must be done. It will be interesting to see how it feels to leave this mess of boxes behind for a couple of weeks and to return to what is basically an empty apartment. Relieved, hopeful, excited, determined; I hope.
Although my Christmas break began yesterday, I don't really feel the relief yet. I still have a paper to write, a portfolio to compile and two books to read, which basically means that my vacation is only a break from going to the university every day, not so much a break from work. However, tonight I will not worry about anything, not about packing, not about studying, not about the things that have bothered me for weeks, I am going to relax in a good company. Sitsit, here I come. Seven deadly sins, wrath, kickboxing outfit. Do I need to say more?
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