Daily life

Exactly a year ago my days consisted of sleeping late, choosing a movie to watch, watching it and repeating that a few times. It seems like it was forever ago, but it has been a year. However, it is hard to believe that it has already been a year. My life has changed so much since that time. There's so much more in it now.

My days now consist of waking up not-so-early but not-very-late, walking or riding a bike to school (3 kilometers), a full day of lectures, sometimes a bit less, taking the trip back home, eating, studying and going to sleep. Of course there are short periods when I watch television or do the laundry or wash the dishes or do sports something else obligatory in order to keep my apartment in order and my mind from exploding. I really do not even have time to do sports. Not an excuse this time, believe me or not.

I am not complaining, though. Yeah I have damned much work to do, far more than I anticipated. Still, this time it feels like I have a purpose in this. I am not just trying to pass time like I felt in Helsinki, I am here for a goal of getting my degree and going to work. Besides, everything that I am studying now is challenging enough but not too hard, which is what motivates me to actually do everything. 

As I am a person who always has to gather some extra activities when I already have a lot on my plate, I have been dealing with two camps and two piano playing gigs + practising alongside this all. The last gig, the final must-do-thing will be soon so I will be free to hmm, I don't know, RELAX for a while. Or take up a new extra-curricular activity to keep me busy until Christmas vacation. 

I have noticed something else, too. I am not so critical of myself anymore. I do not have the attitude towards studies that I have to be the best, I have to do my best. I do not have to try to impress anyone, if something is meant to happen, it will. I do not have to go out if everyone else does, I can decide for myself based on what I really want. Maybe I am growing up.