Today I went to sophisticate myself to a themeday about starting your own business. I actually had a real reason and a goal with it as well, but mostly my attitude was to go and learn something that might turn out to be useful at some point of my life. And I walked away after 6 hours of listening being a lot wiser about this kind of stuff. I kind of dozed off at social studies lessons at high school, oops... but now I got a lot of knowledge about entrepreneurship and the practical side of starting and running a business. That isn't really my thing otherwise (or is it? maybe it could be), so I was anticipating great boredom. Luckily, I was wrong. I wouldn't have survived without two coffee breaks, though...
Before I went, I had a problem. I had this image where all the other participants were a lot older and wiser and were very seriously starting companies and I would look like a stupid little girl who got lost and ended up to that lecture. Well, my solution to the problem was to make a very adult-like hairdo. Hmm, maybe I won a few years in everyone's eyes. In addition, my notebook was from the University of Eastern Finland, so maybe people thought I study there. In reality, I just got it from a friend. Somehow I have a feeling my focus wasn't really where it should have been, was it?
Well, it turned out all my worries were for nothing. I didn't stand out so much, I didn't really talk to anyone and I wasn't looked weirdly at though I was clearly the youngest. And the whole event was really interesting and funny, even, thanks to the hilarious examples of the educator. I might not become an entrepreneur anytime soon, but at least I know what kind of processes I would have to go through. Besides, I have plenty of time to do whatever I want with my life.
That is the kind of knowledge I am happy to have. General, useful information about society which can also help me in my studies and career later. I have applied to study social sciences and social psychology so I might listen to a few other lectures kind of similar to this one in the future. I am sometimes a little ashamed 'cause I don't really have time (read: lazy) to watch or read the news or follow politics. Once I got into a conversation when I was abroad where I was asked about the economic and the political situation in Finland. It was a little embarrassing to have to admit that I don't really know anything, but luckily my friend saved me. One of the main reasons for my choice of studies is that I want a general and applicable education that gives me the advantage of choosing a job from various fields. Also, I just don't like so many other subjects or I don't see them as a possible career.
Allright, after all this serious and ambitious talk the best song I could think of was this one. It is capable of motivating and giving so much strength and energy that after listening to it I always feel like I can touch the stars if I just simply want to.
Graduation day approaching, plans being made, cakes being tested.... and a dress still to find?! Every girl's nightmare. This one is too long, this one is too short, this one is too expensive, this one has the wrong color... trust me, I've had all of that. Now my eyes hurt for going through thousands of dresses online, with no other choice than to start liking some of them 'cause time is running out.
Yes, I am the kind of girl who likes to dress up nicely for an occasion and use jewellery and high heels. But finding a perfect dress, well, it's excruciating. I have noticed that any standard size doesn't really fit me so the dress needs to be exactly the right shape. Well, at least I am not like everybody else, a little unique. That is one of my goals for the graduation: I want to be unique. Nobody can have a similar dress. Please.
I am also a practical person so I wouldn't buy a dress I can't breathe in or that is made of the kind of material that would break right after the first time wearing it. Also, enough is enough so showing a little bit of leg requires something more covering in the upper part. Just for your information guys, shopping for a dress isn't as simple as you'd think.
After the tormenting hunt for a dress, another problem appears: shoes. My feet are not only small but alsodifferent size. So try to find shoes that look good with the dress, are comfortable enough to walk the whole day in, not too high but not too flat and won't fall out of my feet. But, when you put the right pair on, the feeling is invincible. You feel confident, sexy, notable.
This post has been a nightmare to read for any guys who might read this, but girls, I am pretty sure we're on the same page. To end this I give you some music once again, Finnish this time. The title means "the queen of the streets" and I like it a lot. Good night!
I like being young. I have never really given so much thought to what it will be like when I get old, but now I can't help but wonder that. My other entrance exam material consists of six articles regarding social sciences and the one I read today was about ageismor in other words discrimination based on age. Every single word and sentence of that 30-page article was there for a reason and mostly it concentrated on senior citizens.
Age is just a number, people say. You reach opportunities, you gain responsibilities with it. But when enough time passes from the moment you take your first breath, it becomes a burden. What especially makes me want to change the world is the fact how many lonely senior citizens there are. Especially those who live the fourth age, time after those golden years of just being retired and travelling the world and being active, get my sympathy. Being dependent on other people, strangers, who visit you only because they are doing their job, sounds a little scary. What is even more scary is forgetting. Dementia takes away who you are, what you know and what you can do.
Many old people would have so much to give us. They have wisdom that can be gained only from life experiences and therefore they could give crucial notes to decision-making. They have done their part in society so we should give them the respect and support they need. I know it is not always the case; sometimes the story of one's life has too many bumps on the road and that person ends up being bitter and incapable of healthy life physically or mentally. Even in this situation we can't ignore them.
I want to live a long life.I want to grow old and be happy about the way I lived and to be able to enjoy my life until its very end. Therefore I want to use every chance I get to help someone else have that as well. I honestly think I could work with improving the status of senior citizens in society, which is definitely a sign that I am applying for the right education for me. I want to make a difference and in this matter I found one channel to do it.
Once again a song for you, not really related to my thoughts but the sentence "and though you're dead and gone, believe me, your memory will carry on" is something I would want every single person on this planet to leave behind.
It has been almost a week since I came back from London and I realised I haven't written anything about it yet, so let me correct my mistake now. That city was wonderful, so full of life and interesting things to see! I guess my godmother and I walked like 10 kilometers a day, but it was definitely worth it. We had a little bit of bad luck though, since it was probably colder there than in Finland...add strong wind and sleet and freezing is guaranteed, especially being prepared for at least +10 degrees.
We saw almost all of the best-known sights and visited museums, shops, restaurants, cafes etc. One of the highlights of the trip was without a doubt Mamma Mia- musical at Novello theatre, thank you to the amazingly talented and charming people who made the experience unforgettable!
And I cannot talk about London without mentioning the most confusing aspect: traffic. I don't know why they want to drive on the wrong side of the car and the road, but thank god they write to streets which way you are supposed to look. I honestly think there would have been many moments where an accident had been close without them. What kind of surprised me, besides the traffic, was the various flow of people everywhere. I mean that there were so many cultures, languages and nationalities living and functioning in harmony side by side. In my opinion it is a richness, since it makes the cityscape so much more lively and intriguing. Thanks also to the wonderful person at a little restaurant somewhere in the centre, who started a conversation with strangers and gave us many laughters and new thoughts!
I decided I won't upload tourist pictures here because if someone is curious to see what it looks like in London, they can just google it. I will show you one picture that I like a lot, though. It is taken at Harrods, which was a really cool place, but what I will remember the best is this huge teddy bear that is actually taller than me. That would be nice to get at Christmas, wouldn't it? It could give a feeling of safety, at least. I warmly recommend visiting London for anyone and I will definitely go back someday!
Recently I have experienced the difficulty of producing words to spit out to match what is going on in your head. I know I talk a lot, but a lot of it is just superficial chitchat, the producing of which doesn't really require much brain activity. It is easy to talk about nonsense or everyday stuff but when you need to face the simple truth aka what you really think and feel, it gets tough.
The easiest thing is to answer a direct question. That way you can catch a single piece of information from the never-ending flow of thoughts and it is easier to turn it to a sensible explanation. But when you're asked to open your mouth and let it out, the complexity of forming a smooth and understandable piece of a story can turn out to be surprisingly agonising. You can't untie a knot unless you know where the end is, nor can you solve a puzzle if there are pieces missing.
You'd think you know what you think. There is nothing more confusing than mixed feelings and thoughts that you are supposed to put in words. There are too many different coloured threads and too many ends so that you don't know where to pull. All I am trying to say that I can't always figure out the mess inside my head and be sure of what I want. In that case, expressing yourself is extremely challenging. There is always so subtle a line between the feeling inside and the meaning of something verbal and therefore crossing that line gives a wrong impression. Trying to avoid that and to speak directly from the heart as honestly as possible sometimes leads to stuttering, half-finished sentences that seem just wrong in the situation and thinking breaks. Tolerating it takes a lot of patience from the conversation partner, I know.
I am trying my best every single time to face my reality both inside and outside. For many people, including me, it is not only yourself that determines how big a mess and a contradiction your thoughts can form with your feelings. The circumstances, other people, facts, life situation and hopes pull you to all kinds of directions and somehow you are just supposed to choose a path to go. Whether it is the right one or not, you can't know until you know. One thing I am sure of, though; I do not want to make hasty desicions. I want to take my time to clear my way through the jungle of thoughts and when it is clear enough to walk, make desicions based on what I've learned along the way.
Here's a good Finnish song, the title of which is true in everyone's life every now and then. But a mess is a good thing because after cleaning it up you can see much more clearly.
I am so excited! Tomorrow I will be soaring above the clouds headed to a city full of life and English, London! Still hard to imagine I will really go tomorrow, but I guess the alarm clock after 4am will pull me to the reality pretty well. I have only been abroad twice in my life so I will probably act like a 5-year-old in the plane again. Oh poor godmother, she'll have to tolerate me...
Luckily I haven't had to suffer from traveling fever today so much since I was helping my sister and her boyfriend to move to a bigger apartment. The day has been full of work so I haven't had time to panic over things I forgot to pack or didn't think of beforehand. Well, I am the kind of person who doesn't really stress so much over that kind of stuff and besides, it's not in the middle of nowhere so in case I forgot something, I can just buy it. My bank account might not agree but well, I deserve a holiday now.
For me the main point of going abroad isn't shopping, though I am happy if I can do it as well. I want to absorb the feeling of the place, walk the streets, listen to the sounds, breathe the air there. I want to experience it, and of course buy gifts for family. I will take pictures, I'm sure, but I know that they won't be as valuable as what I will have inside my head.
This time I don't have any song for you, I just want to get in the right mood with this picture that will come alive very soon! See you next week!
