Soon

Here I am, sitting in my apartment where there's a small clear space in the middle and everything else is packed up in boxes and bags. Somehow it still feels amazingly unreal that I really am leaving this part of my life behind and turning a page to a whole different era. The sky is flashing with lightnings and thunder, if I didn't knew it was a storm it'd be pretty close to the effect of the huge Olympic stadium concert of Finland's biggest rap artist the other night. I saw him, by the way, at the official afterparty in a nightclub where we actually shouldn't and couldn't have been but well, life happens.

I didn't think it would make me so happy to start packing but it did. Piece by piece, item by item I've got closer to closing the door behind me to an empty room and saying goodbye to Helsinki for now. Maybe even forever. Looking at the course descriptions and the pictures of my new apartment, I get more and more excited about starting the university.

Turning the page also means I have to start from the beginning once again, get to know new people, form bonds that again, hopefully last for a lifetime, create a life that I am happy with. So many possibilities that I can choose from, since this time I know it is my thing for real.

I went to my old school yesterday to get my friend, and the weirdest thing about it was to notice that even though I was gone, nothing had changed. I felt different about it, I was different since I was no longer a part of it and everything had just kept moving like nothing happened. I belong somewhere else now.