Did you hear that?

I just read a piece of news about a little girl who was both blind and deaf and finally got back her ability to hear. I started to think about that and realized that I have probably never heard a complete silence. In fact, if it's completely silent you can't hear even that so basically I undermined my own words, right? No matter how alone or far away from the traffic I am, there's always something. My own breathing, my footsteps on the floor, neighbors talking, elevator moving, music playing. 

Unless I have been in a noisy place for a long time, I don't like silence so much, it makes me uneasy. When I still lived at home, a silent moment alone at times was really needed. However, now that I live basically alone, I constantly have music playing from my computer or the television is on the background. It creates a cosy atmosphere where I can be more relaxed. Somehow, I have never been able to concentrate properly when it's too silent, which is kind of all wrong. My conclusion is that since all my life I've lived among noise coming from the sisters and since I enjoy social situations, it is what I consider normal and therefore the optimal surroundings for studying, for example. In case I try to study in a perfect silence, my own thoughts become so much louder that it steals all my attention. Maybe my brain tries to bring back the balance of normality.

That is why I'd go insane if I lost my ability to hear, I would drive myself crazy when I couldn't hear anything but my own thoughts. I would miss hearing the raindrops falling on the roof while still lazily laying in bed on Sunday morning. I would miss hearing a funny joke and the laughter that follows. I would miss the sound water makes when you put your feet in there. I would miss my favorite song that I play on repeat when getting ready for school, dancing with the curtains open and always remembering too late that there is another apartment building opposite to my window.

The world is full of wonderful sounds that makes it so much more exciting place to live in. And the best ones are the ones you don't only hear but also see and feel at the same time making the experience perfect.